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I can't do this anymore. I just can't...
Things have not gone well with Asok. I tried to contract him to kill The Man With The Bucket. He said he would do it if I paid his price. I followed his instructions and brought all of the money to one of the secret locations where we have been conducting our meetings. I shouldn't have trusted him. I know he is only motivated by money. I should have been smarter about it. I should have insisted on holding back some of the fee for after his job was done. But I don't even think that would have done much good. I actually begged on my knees for my money back. He didn't seem to care. "Be thankful I don't arrest you right now," he said. "You will keep providing me with letters with our regular fee at our regular schedule and if you miss a single payment, I will turn you over to The Emperor. Do you know what The Emperor does to traitors? Oh right... you do."
My mother has stopped talking to me over this. Now she just stares at me as I apologize and plead for her forgiveness. This is what our communication has degraded to.
So here I am, with nothing. I was prepared to part with the money. But I was not prepared to fail Jake yet again by allowing The Man With The Bucket to escape justice. He took my Jake from me and there is nothing I can do about it. I try to pick myself back up, to reclaim the shattered pieces of my life, but I don't see the point of trying anymore.
I just want to end it all,